I spend about 70-80% of my time stressed & overwhelmed.
(An estimate, of course. Since despite my long term OCD tendencies it never occurred to me before this moment to track the time I spend in negative st...
I'm at a loss.
Something floats through my mind.
I try to grab hold.
And, off it goes.
I've waited for days.
Hoping it'd pass.
Yet each day ends up
Proving to be like the last.
I write, read, discard.
I'm waiting. (Or, have been.) Knowing something is coming. Not knowing exactly what.
The crisis with my mother (one that felt very much my own) ended. Now, I try to relax.
I look around at all the things...
Many decisions in the past
Each has however,
Often in a roundabout way,
Brought me to a better place.
It's not the decisions themselves
That burden or sadden me.
More the necessity of them.
Our minds are unruly things.
We want to believe
Their job is to help us.
They distract us
From truly experiencing each day.
Living happens outside the mind.
It consists of a myriad of sensatio...