Journal Entry: Wednesday April 25, 2018 (7:20am)
For months I've been concerned that something might be wrong with me. I've been consumed with a growing desire to withdraw from the world.
I run all ...
I've been thinking about writing.
Just thinking that is.
Each morning determined.
By noon, determination fades.
By evening, it's completely gone away.
I console myself with,
"Tomorrow is the day..."...
Time slips away from me - as it too often does.
I was reminded yesterday that I haven't posted in almost one month!
I can list reasons, excuses... Many valid & strong. In the end, I've been caught up in a...
I have a love/hate relationship with change.
On one hand... Every part of me craves it. I search for it like a drowning man for water. Because I know without it, no growth or progress takes place,
My computer tucked away for months at end... I pull it out only to find dust covering it's lid.
The spring months flew. Now, summer almost gone. I've been living in this otherworldly dimension where times mo...
I wake this morning feeling fine.
Within minutes of getting up, a growing anxiety & overwhelm build in my body. Consuming my mind.
I look around at all I have to do. All that has been left undone. Lists ...
24 hours after my last post, I became ill.
Fatigue hit. Aches. My skin tender to the touch. Chills.
In bed (or, more accurately... on the floor) with a high fever, I stayed. For days. Falling in & out of ...
I've been away.
I'm in an unexpected flux.
Unsure where I will land.
Whether I'll continue to go up.
Tumble back down.
With nothing else to do,
I live a life dependent on schedules & daily maintenance.
When on schedule & adequate maintenance performed (at appropriate times), life runs like a well oiled machine.
Things are good. Things are under...