I think…

“I need to write.”

I grab paper & pen,
My preferred writing style.

Then, I sit and wait
For words to come to me.

Strangely, they don’t.

Or, when they do I reread them –
And, throw them away.

I ask myself,

“What’s wrong with me?”

The problem begins (& probably ends) with the thought

Of needing to write.

Maybe I do.

Maybe I don’t.

What I don’t need (or want) is an unnecessary heavily weighted to-do.

If I write,
Just write…

Without thought of need,
Only from a place of desire,

Words flow freely.

My hand quickly tires.

This I’ve found true for many things.

Turning something into a to-do,
A must
Or a need

Turns something off deep inside of me.

It morphs something I enjoy (or could enjoy)
Into something I want to avoid.

It creates (another) chore.

Stopping thoughts…
That’s a topic for another day.

For now, suffice it to say…

When the thought now comes,
“I need to write.”

I put paper & pen away.

 

 

 

 

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Learning obsessed. Growth focused. Wisdom seeking. Recovering perfectionist. In eternal struggle to tame obsessive compulsive tendencies.

Also blogging about self care at xtremeselfcare.com

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